Oh, For the Wisdom of Solomon

I am a mess trying to figure out what to do. Most of you know the troubles I have had at my current job. The place just feels so negative. I have interviewed at 3 different places this past week. I make good money, so it will be hard to meet the money I make there. However, money is not everything and I don't want to be someplace that I don't like just cause I make good money either. In order to even come close to the money, I would have to work as a float pool nurse, do a weekend option or something that pays extra incentives to make about the same.

I decided that if I did a weekend option, then I would work Friday and Sunday night, so that I would have Saturday off with my family and be able to go to church on Sundays. I would not be willing to give up church for any amount of money.

So, I interviewed at the place I used to work, and they offered me a job. I could either work "Choices" which is kind of like a interhospital float pool, but I would be preassigned to the ICU or the weekend option, but no guarantee that I could work Friday and Sunday. With Choices the catch is, if the census is low, I would be one of the 1st to get cancelled and my pay per hour is dependent on the # of hours worked. So if I get cancelled for a shift, my hourly wage drops by about $8/hr. No benefits and no vacation time. I don't need benefits but vacation is good. With the weekend option, I would have to work on Saturdays occasionally and that interfers with church.

Then I interviewed with Good Sam. Hospital. I interviewed with the Float Pool and they can guarantee a Friday Sunday weekend option, and I would be making 20 cents less than I make now. I would be eligible for benefits and vacation time the same as a part-time employee. I would then work the extra day here at Fleming County Hospital. By working one day a week at home I would be losing about $100.00/week in the difference in pay for that one shift. But I would be home on the days John is home and I could cut out one day of driving.

Then just to make things confusing. My current boss just called to tell me that she had heard a rumor and just wanted to check it out for herself, that I was considering leaving. She wanted me to agree to talk to her before I accepted any other positions. She said that she wants me to know that she thinks that I am one of the best d___ nurses she has ever seen and she doesn't want to lose me. Now what do I do? I still feel like that place has sooooo much chaos and backbiting, lying, and so on that I don't know who to trust and I just get sick when I think I have to go to work. Will it get better? Does the Lord want me to just hang tough?

Oh, for the wisdom of Solomon. The other jobs may cause financial worries occasionally. I may need to pick up an extra shift if I get cancelled. My hours may not be guaranteed in some of them. I would have to float. I just don't know. This job I have, I will never be cancelled because I am in charge. My hours are guaranteed. I have benefits and great pay. But is it right for me. I sometimes feel like Satan is just right beside me trying to take me down. Is this a lesson of perserverence, or is the lesson learned and it's time to move on?

Pray that the Lord makes my decision Crystal Clear.